Growth: The Pandemic & The Growing Anxiety
This pandemic situation has been uncomfortable, uncertain and sure, even scary. But please remember this: Everything we’ve ever learned of the Lord needs to be put into action right now. Everything God has strengthened us for, the truths that have become deeply rooted, all need to be what we run to right now.
A Weighty Earthly Reality
When this pandemic & the shutdown first began, I found myself living under the weight of what felt like was the inevitable contraction of this virus. I was stressed about how I was going to get it, and would I even survive it…simply put, anxiety crashed into my life and settled in. I’m telling you, I love God with my whole heart, and even for me, the fear of this sickness became all-consuming. I was watching and listening to all the data in front I could get ahold of. I tried my best to walk the line between staying informed, and becoming over informed. I would wake in the middle of the night to check my temperature. I over-analyzed every twinge or pain in my body. I just couldn’t seem to escape the heaviness of it all.
Our Spiritual Reality-Choosing God over fear
Finally, after the weight was just too heavy to bare, I did what I should have been doing all along. I stopped trying to find balance and dove headlong into one thing-seeking Gods presence. I turned off the television, sent out a request to my trusted friends for prayer, then sat alone with God. I grabbed my Bible, went to my room & shut the door (shout out to my bomb husband for picking up the responsibilities I dropped while I made a beeline to fall on my knees). There, in His promises was THE ONLY PLACE I found rest.
I’m not saying the severity of the situation went away or the need for careful actions suddenly changed, but by doing this one thing, I was finally able to stand on top of my fears rather than being crushed by them. My perspective shifted and I could now see this situation through the light of eternity. I know that sounds like lofty “Christian-ese” talk. What I mean is that I was reminded that God has a plan for me, for you and for this world. This virus didn’t take God by surprise, and certainly doesn’t have more power than God.
At the end of life, whether it be now, next year, or in the next 20 years, my eternity doesn’t change, and I need to become not only comfortable with that, but I should have expectant joy about it.
Friends, we have to push through the darkness that wants to come crashing through our minds to destroy what we know to be true. We must illuminate the lies with the light of truth. The enemy isn’t going to back down just because a threat comes shockingly close to our doorsteps, he doesn’t quit swinging because we’ve become weary. Moments like THIS is everything we’ve been getting our armor ready for. We (I) cant become complacent and so comfortable in our practices that we forget that our practice actually needs to be put to use.
Gird yourself sister. Pick up your Bible and continue to protect your eyes & hearts. To help you with that, I’m listing some of the verses I’ve been meditating on & really digging deep into. I pray when you get alone with God, these words come alive for you as they did for me.
Psalm 27:1-3 The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread? When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh, My adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell. Though a host encamp against me, My heart will not fear; Though war arise against me, In [spite of] this I shall be confident.
Psalm 34:4 I sought the LORD, and He heard me, And delivered me from all my fears.
Psalm 34:4 (MSG) God met me more than halfway, He freed me from my anxious fears.
Psalm 34:7 The angel of the LORD encamps all around those who fear Him, and delivers them.
Psalm 48:14 (NET) For God, our God, is our defender forever! He guides us!
Psalm 71:3 Be my strong refuge, to which I may resort continually; You have given the commandment to save me, for You are my rock and my fortress.
Psalm 91:11 For He shall give His angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways.
Psalm 139:14-16 I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.
Romans 8:28 And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
Much love, tons of giggles & continued grace,