Why I trust, even when I don’t understand
I recently did a study on Proverbs 3: 1-6, and here’s what struck me. Verse 5 says to “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding“.
So, what this is saying is that understanding a situation, and trusting in the Lord can be two completely different concepts.
- Understanding deals with what we’ve learned from our own senses, abilities, and limitations.
- While trusting deals with accepting what’s possible for God. We look at a situation and just know that there’s no way out. However, God is not limited by the boundaries we are. He can do what we can’t.
I’ve walked in some difficult places, places where I knew I was up against a wall. I’m the type of person who ponders away at a situation until I can find some possible solution. However, God has brought me to places that left me with no choice but to say God, I don’t know what to do. Please take this, I can’t carry this anymore, and nothing I do is working out right. I’ve been lost and confused, wondering why? Why, if I’ve done what I know is right and tried to live the best I can for you, why this?
That, I can’t answer directly. I don’t know God intentions, but I can give you encouragement. I can say looking back; you’ll never regret being brought to that moment where you made a decision to trust God with your life. You’ll never say I wish I never went through that struggle. Because it’s when you finally gave in to His love, when you finally broke free of your own limitations. Or, at least, that’s how I feel.
I’d be lying if I said walking through trials wasn’t something I still battled with. Although, it’s not so much with trusting, but the struggle comes when I realize I have to let go of the vision I have of success and surrender to how He defines success. The funny thing is, He always has a “one up” on me. He always has a better way. You think I‘d be used to it by now. But each situation, each trial is different. So when I walk through something new, I’m learning to let go, and hold onto Him a little sooner than the last time. He continually shows me a new way of trusting Him.
I’m amazed at how often I hold back from giving over all my trust. Yet He gives me all His grace, all His mercy, all His kindness. He doesn’t hold back just because I do. That’s my God, He’ll never leave or forsake. Each time He catches me, He’s brining me closer to living fully in this verse. “ALL” your heart, that’s all folks! Not somewhat trusting, with a foot in the doorway of “I don’t know about this”. All your heart. How wonderful that He’s willing to work with me until I get it right. I can now say that I’ve walk long enough with God, and He’s shown me so much about Himself, that even if I’m scared, I will walk with Him even if I don’t understand what He’s doing.