Trusting God is more than just MY God
Something interesting has happened to me recently. I was riding shotgun to someone else’s struggle, and I learned something about myself. Do I trust God enough to believe He’s helping others? Of course I do…right? Faith is faith all the time, trust is trust all the time. This really concerned me; I had to figure out what these thoughts were all about.
I’ve been through many personal journey’s (jour·ney (noun) an act of traveling from one place to another-yep, that’s the word I’m looking for) where I’ve HAD to trust God. Situations that my family and I overcame, but in such miraculous ways, that no person could ever claim he glory…it was all God. I’ve learned that God has a sense of humor, and no sense of time-He works outside of time, and yet everything always comes together and lines up. He has confirmed that He doesn’t need my help, I can’t do what He can, and that YES, He really can move mountains. He cares for me and calls me His beloved daughter. Over and over again, He has confirmed that, “it’s true Jennifer, I love you, and if you will give it over to me, I will take it over and run far-to the heavens to put you in a victorious place”. I believe this with all that I am.
So, here it is. What I’ve figured out is that I have to learn a new kind of trust. Trust in someone else’s connection with God. Letting go and realizing that I am not the one who can save everyone. Learning that God doesn’t only speak to me. That He speaks to other people to gives them the strength they need. But, the trial for me is learning to sit back and allow someone else’s strength to rise up within them, without thinking the fight also has to rise up in me. This is a new learning lesson God’s taking me through. It’s so hard for me to sit back and just and do nothing. It’s learning to trust God in a new way. It’s an inactive trust, a patient trust, a real trusting trust that God is actually connecting with someone else and that someone else is actually listening to God. I can’t force either of these two sides. I have to just sit back and pray, be patient in my prayers, that God is steady and true to His promises-promises to come to our defense and fight for us. I guess the real struggle is when it comes so close to home, when it comes to loved ones, I just have this aching pain and feel that it’s up to me to FIX it. I wanna say “it’s OK, I got this, don’t worry-I’ll give it back when it’s all better”. Ya’ Know!!?? (maybe it’s the Mama Bear in me)
When I go through my own struggles I’m fighting, praying, and moving, I’m doing things. I guess in my head, I feel like me and God are fighting and working it out together (WRONG!). But when it’s someone else’s struggle, I can do nothing. I have to acknowledge that I’m not supposed to fix it. It’s not my job, it’s not my struggle it’s between someone else and God. Trust God in All things. I have always heard this, and I thought I always believed it. That’s God, same words-never changing-but alive enough to be heard in new ways! All we can really do is be there for others. Let them know we love them, we see their struggles, we’re praying, and that they’re always welcome to come over and talk-either over a cup of coffee, or a good cry.
Please tell me I’m not alone, that I’m not the only one learning new ways of trusting (eh-ehm) and being humbled by the Lord!