My Roman Heart: How God gently lead me to trust Him
With out a big splash or flashing lights drawing attention to Himself, God has quietly led me to trust in Him.
It started with a cot. When we were homeless, a cot at the shelter & enough room for all of us became a huge blessing. Just when we became satisfied with “just enough“, He began to reveal a new path before us inviting us to trust as began to walk with Him.
We learned to be content with every wonderful blessing that was laid out before us. Then, stone by stone & step by step, God moved us further away from that cot. We began to trust He was in control.
But let me take it even further back than that…I didn’t even know I wanted to know God. But He refused to leave me, He desired me when no one else did. He first loved me. Before I was born His love for me was already in place. He had plans for me, and so He sought me when I went astray. Looking back, I can see specific areas of my life where it’s evident God has spent years sheltering me from storms, laying foundations of trust that my future self would look back on in amazement.
But you see, it’s not about the house, it was never just about the house…it was always about the journey to discovering God, trusting Him and learning to love correctly Him back. Now as I look back on all the years I spent without Him, I see how His tender hand caught me every time I fell. He endured years of being ignored by me; because He loves me, because He promised He would, and because He was proving I could trust Him, even if I wasn’t looking & even if He was receiving the thanks He deserved at the time.
The foundation God laid has truly led me to trust in Him and has given me confidence to trust Him with every part of my life. It’s so amazingly deep & has so many layers that I’m still discovering. Words can’t explain the wonder of it. When the waters rise, I fix my eyes on Him and He reminds me of His faithfulness, God reminds me that I can trust Him.
I pray that you too know this truth of our Heavenly Father. And if not, it’s so very easy to obtain…simply ask for it. Call on the Lord and ask Him to please reveal His presence, then trust that He will.
You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid but before a single day had passed.
Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the LORD will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”
Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.
When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.
Much love, tons of giggles & continued grace,